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[Jul. 23rd, 2009|01:43 am] |
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"I want to go out and live my life. I can't stay here."
Not my words, of course.I enjoy living in the Valley; its been my home for 24 years. Despite what people may believe, I would be totally content living elsewhere. A location is nothing more than a location. I have no regard for tall buildings, trendy like-minded people or golden bridges. A city doesn't make me any more or any less. I am my happy self wherever i go.
At this point in my life i can befriend anybody, no matter race, religion, political beliefs or even sexuality.
I'm not afraid of growing up, paying bills or being alone in a strange place. I am built to adapt in any situation or place. Throw me in there and i'll find my way. I promise.
I am currently trying to live my life as happy as can be.
Life is hard and people are dying around me.
I close my eyes, say a prayer and thank my maker.
I am thankful for my sick father who has defied all medical odds and walks among us. His one wish is that i get married soon and have children that he can hold and play with.
His older brother is about to die, losing his battle with cancer. I don't know how long my father has left on this earth either.
My mother just lost her mother in early July. It has taken a tremendous toll on her; I hear her crying every night.
My parents are old and fragile and very faithful to the Lord.
I wonder what they would think of my drinking ways, my doubtful mind, my tattooed body and my sex life?
I know they would still love me and my girlfriend. But i do know that they would pose a problem and impose that she and I seek God in all we do. That is a road i'm not ready to drive through yet.
My parents have given me so much and even though i have three siblings, I wouldn't feel comfortable going so far away from my parents. Because i feel that they may need me to be close one day. I would never forgive myself for being a thousand miles away if something bad happened.
For now I remain in the Valley content with the world despite its harsh ways. I want to travel and see it one day. Maybe someday soon, it's all about the money anyway.
If i could i would move out of the states and travel and see the world.
My not so distant future lies somewhere in Austin San Antonio or maybe the Valley.
If she chooses to hold this against me, then i don't know what to say other than i'm sorry that i'm a good person trying to do good things. Isn't that what we all should strive to do?
I guess you could say that i am sacrificing my life for others, but my life is my life no matter where i am. I guess that's what i wan to get across. |
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| someone told me not to cry |
[Jul. 8th, 2009|12:32 am] |
These past few days have been so hard on me. My grandmother is gone and i didn't think i would miss her so. Life is scary,hard and full of pain. I don;t even know what to believe in. Everything is just so out of order and reason, EVERYTHING,
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| Cutting Dad's hair. |
[Jun. 22nd, 2009|10:08 pm] |
Word on the street is that I am a lighter, younger version of my Pops
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| VINYL! I worry about cancer and living right. |
[May. 6th, 2009|10:16 pm] |
I have bought four Vinyl records in the last week:
"Acid Tongue"
"Menos el Oso"
"Oracular Spectacular"
"I'm Wide Awake it's Morning"
Marissa and I sold back a ton of stuff to hastings and i was awarded 104 Fracken Dollars! I have some stuff on order.
Marissa's Birthday was really horrible, but i tried my best to make her smile, but nothing could break her unhappy resolve. These past few weeks have been especially hard. My uncle is living out his last days and they aren't quite happy, my grandmother went from being perfectly fine to being diagnosed with two tumors and then she had a stroke and went a bit insane. Oh yeah and my dad's heart is shrinking. I'm also very uncertain about final grades.
GAWD I'm just here trying to pick up the pieces and go back to how things used to be.
The great thing is that I am quite the OPTIMIST.
( Mas Aqui ) |
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| new things |
[Jan. 22nd, 2009|11:08 am] |
So I finally won something on ebay. No, not the Straylight Run vinyl that i had to cough up $60 to get it from some douche bag in the midwest. Instead a pair of red boxer briefs HAHA!
I got an Iphone!
I also spent $93 on American apparel clothing (sweat shop free and illegal/immigrant friendly)
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Marissa and i went to see Yes Man and i liked it. ZOOEY DESCANEL!!!
Lets see this semester I'm taking 4 classes: a reporting class, a photojournalism class, a drama class and a gender class. One step closer to graduation i guess. |
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| photo party! |
[Jan. 1st, 2009|11:10 pm] |
Christmas Eve!
Christmas Party!
New Year's Eve!
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[Oct. 13th, 2008|10:00 pm] |
So... things are going great in life, love and education. I was just informed, a few days ago, that i will be getting promoted in the A&E section for the Pan American.I'm so very excited, but so very scared at the same time.I'm still waiting to get word back from the Panorama to see if i get hired as a writer. Only time will tell if I will be able to handle all of this, but my spidey senses are telling me that i can!
So... I'm turning 24 on the Oct. 20. GAWD am i getting old or what? Details on my birthday happening are still sketchy, but i'm not drinking till i puke this time and that's for sure. I feel like having some form of Asian food and going to a simple bar or hanging at my friend's apartment. I don't know yet. This is going to be my first birthday spent with a girlfriend (Marissa aka cinnayum on LJ) in a long while, the last gift that a past girlfriend has gotten me was a 2002 X-Files season 8 calendar, yeah it's been that long.Anyway i only asked for a single gift and she knows what it is :x Any way my body totally gave me an early gift, a second chest hair, now i just need about a thousand more.
Last week Denise, Marissa and I went to San Antonio & Austin. OK in a nutshell... the concert was lame,we got lost downtown in San Antonio for about 3 hours looking for my car, ate a lot at the river walk,ate at this amazing french place( can't spell its' name) shopped at American Apparel and Urbanoutfittersand had the best time. It was amazing waking up next to her every and also being the last person she sees at night. It was bliss. Here are some pics( a few pics ) |
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[Sep. 21st, 2008|11:39 pm] |
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OMG IM STRESSING OUT RIGHT NOW!!
( MY CUTE FACE )
I'm just going to split my self in 4 and have one of me sleep, the other write a story, the other write an other story and the last one write another story!! Yes im being fucking vague! SHOW DON'T TELL... |
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| Fall TV Premieres |
[Sep. 8th, 2008|12:22 pm] |
If you haven't already figured it out, television dictates my life!! These are the shows that i will be watching this upcoming fall season:
( MY SHOWS )
so hats that!! |
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| 2 posts in one day?!! |
[Aug. 20th, 2008|11:45 pm] |
I'm in love with you and waking up next to you is bliss, lets do that more often! I thought it was nice that even though i was throwing up and felt sick, you still wanted to kiss me:)
denise thinks i look like pete doherty, what do you think?( TWINZ? ) But i dont really see it! |
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| PERIOD:) |
[Aug. 20th, 2008|07:56 pm] |
Summer school ended and i am half a step closer to finishing my degree;30 more steps to go. Work at The Pan-American is great, i love being out and meeting people. I hope to work for the Panorama in the spring and only GOD knows how i will be able to handle 12 hours of classes, The Pan-American,Panorama,Star(sucks) and a personal life. I'm pretty sure I'll freak the fuck out at one point, but I like a challenge. My fall schedule is as follows: reporting, Feature writing and Research in Communication. I am waiting for people to get dropped so i can pick up another class.
So what have i been up to since summer school finished and i don't have to wake up at 645am?
Just out of the blue Denise, Nicki and I decided to go to the beach(of course Marissa came along.)just to spend a night. We went out to the beach at around midnight, Marissa and I walked ahead and stood at the shore. It was so dark standing there as the water hugged our feet; it felt like we were the only two people in the world.(very existential) Then we realized that horror films start exactly the same way.
At one point in every relationship people are tested. Be it with fidelity,trust or whatever that can make or break you. Well i believe Marissa and I were tested and it had nothing to do with trust or fidelity. It was probably higher in the totem pole, but we managed through it(gotta love Walgreens and over-the-counter medicine) It may not be a big deal, but the outcome is grander than life itself(at least for me) and situations or conversations in which your character is defined are quite nice.
(Marissa likes clouds and she takes a lot of pictures featuring them, so i thought i'd take a stab) I took this outside of the student union at panam.
(peanut butter & Jelly + Lactose free milk in a batman cup = Fucking delicious!)
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| My winniprg |
[Jul. 28th, 2008|09:50 am] |
THIS MOVIE LOOKS INTERESTING!
MY ONE PLROBLEM WITH THE DARK KNIGHT!
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| Wednesday! |
[Jul. 23rd, 2008|12:39 pm] |
So Dolly is being shy!
This passed weekend was Mario's Birthday.
Marissa took this horrible picture of me!
( Mario's B-day! )
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[Jul. 22nd, 2008|12:42 pm] |
Screw LJ CUTS or Whatever.
And Today i decided to be as vain as possible and in my infinite ugliness and slight humor this is the result...
Straight to my heart!
This face usually makes people laugh...in a great way
Dive right into it, Wow that twitch in my eye, its the sugar!
Matt told me that this lady died once because her insides were all cheetos.
Generally i would just lick em up but using the comp labs at school is an eye opening experience. You learn why you should never put your fingers in your mouth!
I want that crumb there!
There is that face again.
EVOO?
Carmen on the phone telling me to gas up for dolly.
FULL!!
Because i am always Horny!
Just my finger!
You have no idea how long it took to get this somewhat right(dont worry marissa i only have eyes 4 u!!)
MORE CHEESE!
Ok tired of pictures!
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I write for the paper.
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| Camera ready. |
[Jul. 21st, 2008|08:43 pm] |
CAMERAPHONE SNAPS.
Wearing my girlfriend's(MarisSa) Glasses.
At a cigar shop IDK where.(restroom)
I really need a small handy camera and not a big bulky nikon! I should not have sold nicki my old cam.This is my next big buy, a slim,handy functional and light camera so that i can take millions of pictures of my scoobies and such.
THE X FILES: I WANT TO BELIEVE
So i read a review for the film and fuck that dude that wrote it! He have is a C
I cannot express how hard it is not to look at the spoilers!!! four more days!!
I spend most of my day checking this site...
http://www.xfilesultimate.com/
Since im looking through my camera phone files here ya go in random order!
P.s. These pictures are olllllllld!
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